megan

… and it isn’t broccoli this time.

I don’t have female friends in my life.  Honest to God, I rarely hang out with girls.  I am a loner.  Always have been for the most part.  I have a boyfriend, and I hang out with him and his friends.  I don’t trust girls.  I never have.  I have had girlfriends in the past and they have burned me in the end.  The claws always end up coming out.  So my natural defense now is to always been friendly and sociable, but never get too close and never confide in females.

 I found this website a while back.  Obviously this website has both men and women on it, but let’s be frank: it is swarming with women.  We’re insecure and more worried about our bodies than most men.  Today is an awful day for BuddySlim and I am ashamed.  This stupid drama is so childish and it reminds me of the reason why I am a loner.

 I don’t feel support from the Heartbreakers weight loss forum I’m on.  I don’t.  There, I said it.

I’m going to go to dinner now with Alex.  I’ll return later and perhaps by then this bad taste will be out of my mouth.

Why do some people’s posts stay the most recently written post all day?  I’ve noticed that a few times.  The most popular post of the day will be the post that is also listed as being most recently written.  I’ll log in a few hours later, and that same blog is still in that most recently written blog spot, even though other blogs have been written?

Today I am beginning a 1 week vegan diet.  I decided to do this after reading “Skinny Bitch.”  Has anyone else read this book?  In a nutshell… this book says if you want to be skinny, stop eating meat, stop eating dairy and start eating fruits, veggies, whole grains.  Eat as much as you want, but just stop eating crap!  The book is pretty political, going in depth about the corruption of the meat industry and animal rights, bashing the dairy industry and the FDA.  I’d definitely recommend it.  You may like what you read, you may totally disagree with it, but it will certainly stir a strong opinion. 

There was an organic grocery store that just opened up in my town.  I went there today to do my grocery shopping.  I loaded up on organic and vegan products.  It’s an expensive store, so I just got my healthy vegan foods there and I will go to our ”normal” local grocery store to get my boyfriend his non-vegan meals and snacks for the week.  I couldn’t afford the $11/lb deli meat there! Yikes!

  I will keep you all posted with blogs on how the vegan experiment goes. 

Hey ladies I’ve had something on my mind that’s been bothering me a lot and I’m not quite sure what to do.  My good friend from college who I’ve known for about 7 years got married a few weeks back.  As a bit of background, she was what I would consider my best friend in college.  We lived together one year and hung out constantly.  I was there for her and she was there for me through thick and thin.  We often referred to eachother as best friends.

Here’s what has me bothered: She didn’t invite me to be in her wedding!  She had, as her Maid of Honor, a mutual friend of ours who we both hung out with often in college.  I know she was close with this girl who was her MOH, but I couldn’t help but feel a bit sad that she didn’t ask me to.  To top it all off, she didn’t even ask me to be a bridesmaid.  And she had one girl as a bridesmaid who was a pretty casual friend throughout college!  If I were to get married, she would be one of the first people I think of to be in my wedding, quite possibly as the MOH.

Now I know we’ve grown apart a bit since college since I moved out to Seattle and she lives outside Chicago.  However, I was even one of the “matchmakers” for her meeting her now husband, and without knowing me, they never would have met.  We’ve also talked on the phone fairly regularly and visited eachother a few times (flying back and forth) since college ended 3 years ago.  So we’ve definitely still been involved in eachother’s lives.

At first I wasn’t too bothered by the fact that I wasn’t in the wedding, but once I was there and saw who the bridesmaids were (by the way, I flew to Iowa for the wedding) and who the MOH was, my feelings were really hurt.  I feel like she doesn’t consider me as good of a friend as I consider her.  I even got really jealous when the MOH read her speech and talked about when Emily, the bride, asked her to be the MOH.

I had fun at the wedding and of course didn’t want to be a little shit that got dramatic about this on someone’s special day, so I didn’t mention anything to anyone.  But now that it’s over, I’m still upset.  My friend called me the other day, but I haven’t returned her call because I don’t know what to say.  My feelings are hurt and I feel like I got the shaft.  Should I mention it?  Should I say anything?  Or should I just drop it and try to get over it?

Hello everyone!  I have been away from a computer the last few days.  I went to Chicago and Iowa to visit my parents/brother and to my friend’s wedding.  It was a great time, but I DID definitely miss BuddySlim.  I’ve also been very bad about what I eat.  Tomorrow I will step on the scale and see what kind of damage I’ve done.  Good news it it’s only been a few days so the damage can only be so bad.  Anyway I am getting a picture CD tomorrow (I used a disposable camera at the wedding) and will post some pics from the wedding. 

 Now I must go check in to the Heartbreakers forum which I haven’t been on in a few days sadly.  I missed you all, it’s good to be back (and BACK ON TRACK!)

I took my big work test (refer to blog: I’m Scared) and guess what?  I PASSED!!!!!!!!!!!   I AM management material!  It was me and three older guys taking the test.  One of them was really confident and cocky.  He’d come out of every section saying things like “That was easy.”  Meanwhile, I’m practically hypervintilating into a paper bag and questioning if I passed after each section.

 Well, after 6 hours of oral test taking, we all got sat in a room together and got our results.  And guess what?  Me and another guy (not the cocky one) tied for first place!!!!  Cocky dude came in third and another guy came in fourth!

I called my parents- they are so so proud of me.  My area manager called me and told me how proud of me she was.  I got about one million congratulations today.  And it doesn’t hurt that I also got a promotion and a raise.

 Today was a good day.   With that behind me, now I can really truly focus on my weight loss efforts.  Thanks for your encouragement when I was so scared to take this test, everyone.  You are great xoxo

I have one test and only one test for my career and it determines if I’m management material.  It’s on Thursday.  It’s a day long test.  The entire test is oral.  The big wigs of the company spend the day grilling me on the information I know.  Everyone knows I’m taking it.  If I fail it, I will be humiliated beyond belief.  I have been studying a lot but now that it’s getting down to the wire, I’m more scared than ever and really feel like there’s a lot of stuff I still don’t know.  I’m so scared.  I just want it to be Friday and for this to be over.

We all have this similar goal: get in shape and lose weight!  We all have different reasons why we chose to or why we chose now.  But what I think makes this website so cool is that we are all there for eachother to lend support and advice.  I want this post to be dedicated to your own secrets of success, motivation or any other advice/tips you’d like to share with your fellow Buddyslim friends.  Here are mine:

1)  I can eat anything I want.  Just in moderation.  This is important to me b/c if I feel deprived, I know I’ll go off the deep end and eventually binge.

2)  Exercise should be fun.  I used to go to the gym, and maybe I will again down the road, but in my experience, I have more fun exercising outdoors.  I walk and bicycle.  That’s what’s fun for me.  It makes it much less dreadful if you don’t hate it!

3)  I keep a food journal in my purse.  It’s a day planner dedicated just to food.  And I write down everything I eat/drink with calories.  I also write down my exercise for that day in it after I’ve accomplished it.

4)  Weigh in only in the morning, after going potty.  Naked!

Those are kind of the “staples” of my weight loss program.  Obvious I don’t have any amazing “magic bullets” or unheard of advice.  But it’s always nice to share what works for you.  I hope to learn some other great tips here.  What are YOUR secrets for weight loss??

Hello everyone!  It’s good to be back. I don’t think I’ve been on here for just maybe 2 days, but I am in BuddySlim withdrawal!  Well, yesterday was my birthday.  It was definitely not a healthy day!  I had Pizza Hut for lunch because my work gave a pizza party in honor of my birthday.  And for dinner…. ooooh for dinner….. it was AMAZING.  I went to the Melting Pot with my hunny.  Oh my goodness it was deliciously amazing and such a fun experience!  I’d recommend this restaurant to anyone out there who has a special occasion like a birthday or anniversary.  It’s expensive but so amazing!  We had cheese fondue, filet mignon, lobster tail, chocolate covered strawberries and more.  Obviously yesterday was not an excellent diet day.  But today I am back on track!  Lots of water and healthy meals.  I hope to lose a pound this week, but YIKES!  We’ll see.  My birthday was pretty naughty.

 I got two amazing gifts for my birthday, both of which will help me in my weight loss.  I got an IPod Nano!  Yippeee!  I am going to download tons of upbeat exercise music on it.  And I also got…. (drumroll please)…… a bicycle!!!  It will be my new form of exercise…. and boy am I bad at it!  I was only that thing for a bit when I first got it and holy crap I’m out of shape!  If I didn’t already know that the bike ride certainly reminded me. 

Well, I am going to go browse through the Heartbreakers forums (Goooo Heartbreakers!) and then I am off to bed here since I have to run the store tomorrow (lots of responsibility.)  I missed you all! xoxo

Well, I was very excited to make a delicious, healthy smoothie treat for my boyfriend and I this evening.  I had just gone grocery shopping, so I threw some ice, vanilla low-fat yogurt, strawberries and a banana into the blender.  I blended it all together and a delicious concoction it was indeed! 

I proudly handed my boyfriend a glass, and told him I made him a delicious treat.  I told him what was in it.  He sipped on it, always weary of anything that isn’t processed or full of fat.  He drank about half of it, the other half our lucky dog Sage got to sip off a paper plate. 

About an hour later, my boyfriend started coughing severely.  He came to me and said he was worried that he wasn’t feeling well.  I told “I’m sure you just have a frog in your throat, don’t worry too much.”  He went a laid down in bed.  I went to check on him a couple minutes later, and I noticed his eyes were very puffy, especially the right one.  It was puffy to the point that it was almost completely closed. 

The unfortunate part of this ordeal is my boyfriend doesn’t currently have medical coverage.  To be on the safe side, I call a nurse and speak to her about his condition.  She asks to speak to him.  During their conversation, I am not listening in, I am in a different room.  Afterwards, my boyfriend comes out and says he needs to go to the hospital immediately.  The nurse said his throat could potentially close up.

I drive him to the ER.  At this point, my boyfriend is suspecting he has a banana allergy.  This is a pretty good suspicion.  About two years ago we had to go the ER for an allergic reaction and that morning the only things he did differently were take Ibuprofen and eat a banana.  He hasn’t eaten a banana since, but strangely, he has eat banana nut muffins.   

At the ER, they give him a few IVs to keep his throat from potentially closing up.  He got epinephrine, benadryl and a prescription for streroids and an Epi-Pen.  Fortunately, we are back home now, and although he is very sleepy, he is much better and his swelling has gone down. 

We will have to go see an allergist to confirm what exactly he is allergic to, but we are both guessing it’s bananas.  My boyfriends words as we were sitting in his patient room, waiting for the doctor, were “That was one expensive smoothie!”  Live and learn I suppose!